my life is like an open book yet no one cares to read. i worry and i wait like an impatient child. i love stupidly and give overly. my days are sometimes filled with regret of past things. i worry also of the future from which i am blind and it annoys me not to know what to expect. but i learn to listen and slowly but surely i learn to wait. the one i love is patient at times and loving always. with me in his arms he will tell me he loves me and i feel so....so. it is a feeling i can't describe and yet this undescribable feeling sets my heart on fire leaving all regret to fall to the ground like forgotten ashes. my days are my fresh pages awaiting for something new, something that is worth remembering. To waste them would be a selfish thing that i no for sure and to use up my days in worry shall come to an end.

EDWARD!!!!EDWARD!!!EDWARD

SO TWILIGHT IS THA BEST MOVIE I COULD EVER WATCH!! I THINK THE ONLY REASON I LIKE IT SO MUCH IS BECAUSE THE BOOK IS SOOOO FREAKIN AWESOME!! I AM ON THE SECOND ONE AND I AM OBSESSED ALMOST!!! IT ALMOST FEELS LIKE A SIN TO LIKE IT SO MUCH BUT EDWARD REALLY TAKES MY BREATH AWAY. I WOULD SEARCH FOREVER IF I KNEW SOMEONE LIKE EDWARD EXSISTED FOR ME. I HAVE JEREMIAH THOUGH AND PULLS OFF THE EDWARD CHARACTERISTICS PRETTY GOOD TO. I LIKE HIM THE WAY HE IS THOUGH, TO COMPARE HIM TO A STORY BOOK CHARACTER IS KIND OF CHILDISH BUT I AM STILL YOUNG LOL!!!

BESTIES

I had never heard the word Bestie until this year and I was like what the heck is that. Well I finally realized my college besties are Brittany and Karla. They really are the bomb and we all care about each other. The other day when Karla and I were walking from the cafeteria she told me “you know what you are truly my best friend” I was like aw what an honor to be a Salvadorians bestie lol. But really it felt nice for her to say that ‘because I am still getting over the loss of Kourtney and Kassie, and to have Britt say that they were they were there for me really felt comforting. They don’t judge me and listen just like I do for them. Brittany is from this town near Houston and had scoliosis surgery just like I did. She wanted to be a psychology major but ended up in another so I have half a psychiatrist as a friend Hehe. Karla is from a town in Dallas, but came from Salvador and she wants to be an RN just like me. How coincidental that Karla and Karla both want to be nurses Hehe (kind of twilight zone-ish) any who me and Karla study a lot together and me and Brittany can talk to each other till the sun goes down and come back up again Hehe. She majors in theater I think and she reminds me of my friend Danyale from a long time ago, all dramatic and down to earth at the same time. She has a pretty big vocabulary to. Karla has a dude in Salvador she talks to at nighttime and we both watch this Spanish soap opera (though I have no idea what they are saying it is pretty interesting) we all have like nothing in common except our senses of humor and caring for one another. Karla is like a study-holic and Brittany can get distracted so easily while doing homework. I’m kind of in the middle. Brittany dresses in the mood and Karla has a lot of Hollister and other brands like that for clothes. Karla wakes up real easy in the morning and Brittany has a certain routine for waking up or it just ruins the waking process for her. You see all the differences yet we have the most fun together. I do see kourt and kass too. But here lately I haven’t but it doesn’t bother me, I screwed up but I have gotten over. I have too much other stuff to stress out about. (like anatomy for instance hehe) . Anywho these two I have described in so much detail are officially my besties and I love them to death. They are both gorgeous inside and out and I hope we can still be friends after our college relationship is over.

...."yawn"

so i awake today thinking of nothing but studying for skool and i have this weird idea to make a special blog. one that is just private and where i can post my personal thoughts in the form of a lyric or poem or something with ryhthm or no rhythm at all. a blog where i don't have anybody looking into my world and judging me from the words that i rite or the thoughts that run through my mind. these are things i would never say outloud: mildly putting it mwa ha. lol.